Both my physical health and mental health took a turn for the worse over the last few months - I'm having more issues than I know where to begin with and I haven't been able to write for a while, which, in turn, affected my mental health too. In terms of physical health, I'm feeling probably the worst I've ever felt in my life and like my poor little body falling to pieces and there's nothing I can do about it.
It is absolutely impossible to focus your eyes for 30 seconds and to not blink. I don't know anyone who can hold their eyes open and focus on some images for half a minute at a time!
I have to say, I'm pretty sick of being in the eye unit at the hospital. My second experience was better than my first, but after my third.. and fourth, I feel pretty sick to my stomach of the sight of it!
I've been miserable before because of my health, but this was something else - l osing your sight is pretty scary! I've learned to cope with pain, but I'm not used to feeling so vulnerable and partially sighted.
You were probably expecting me to say that everything went black. It didn't. I got vivid rainbow hundred-and-thousands type floaters in my vision. Bright tiny little worms of colour, everywhere I looked, even if I shut my eyes.
Over several months I had an MRI, CT, two occiptal nerve blocks, and physical therapy on my neck. It was discovered that I had a buldging disc and arthritis in my neck. One is fixable and one is not. After going over all my symptoms they diagnosed me also with occipital and trigeminal neuralgia.
When I turned thirty-years-old in February, I didn’t think I would be moving back home with my parents and youngest sister. I didn’t think I was going to lose my boyfriend, dog, home, job, and my ability to drive… all in one year that hasn’t even ended yet. Keep reading, I promise, it does get better.